I’ve been stalling on my blogging lately, and wondering whether I should knock it on the head. Give it a rest, like. Put it to bed. You know, stop blogging.
Plagued with doubts, I’m wondering if its a good idea to blog about bunny at all. What’s he going to feel when he gets older, and sees his picture splashed about all over the net? The intimate details of his sleeping habits out on view for every Tom, Dick and Harry to have a butchers?
What if there are freaks and sickos out there looking at photos of my bunny and sending him bad vibes? Even worse, what if they’re getting off on how cute he is. You know, like in a bad way.
And it’s not just about the bunny. I’ve also been questioning whether I should be blogging about the F.O.B. For one thing, he’s bound to stumble across this blog one of these days. I’ve nearly slipped up and told him about it once or twice in passing conversation. I don’t think some of the content would go down too well with him. He’s of a different generation. He wouldn’t understand. Plus he’s terribly, terribly English. He’d think it was awfully improper to be washing one’s dirty laundry in public.
It all comes back to the bunny again. He’s the most important one in all of this. He’s innocent and pure. Vulnerable and impressionable. I don’t want him growing up and seeing the horrible things that mummy said about daddy, or the horrible things that daddy said about mummy. I want to shield him from all that unnecessary negative stuff. I don’t want him to know how mama and papa fought about child support and birth certificates and paternity tests. It’s far too ugly and it needs to be swept under the rug and out the door.
So, what to do… I could go back and delete all the posts that seem “unsuitable” or rewrite them. Or I could take the whole blog down, and start again from scratch, being more mindful and considerate with my words. One thing’s for sure, I need to put some deep thought into this, and figure out what to do next. For bunny.
Mon 8 Jun 2009 at 10:06 am
I know exactly how you feel. Hence, the reason I have not blogged until recently. For me it was more theraputic and if there is anyone that can identify with me I feel ‘that much’ better you know?
The thing about your blog I enjoy the most are the letters to Bunny on his birthday. Those are letters to save
Mon 8 Jun 2009 at 10:14 pm
Yes, a good blog like yours requires that a person be bold, open and honest. Unfortunately, if that bold honesty is jeopardizing your Bunny in any way then perhaps it is time to reconsider this blog. If you decide to stop blogging we will miss you terribly but will understand and support your decision!
Tue 9 Jun 2009 at 3:31 pm
You should do what you feel is right for your family.
Thu 11 Jun 2009 at 8:56 am
Hi there, I just wanted to tell you I am a stay at home mom of a 15.5 month old and i’ve been reading your blog (not as often as I’d like to) since November. I feel like everything you are going through with bunny, I am going through with my girl. Including the sleep stuff! I totally understand your thoughts on ending the blog but in case you do it before I jump on again I wanted to say this is the one thing I’ve read in the past 15 months that has made me feel good (unlike all those stupid parenting books that are just after making money). You are real and going through real stuff and you’re funny as hell to boot. I’m going to try and catch up on your posts before you go dark. One thing I know for sure is we WILL sleep again one day.
Andi
Sat 20 Jun 2009 at 5:20 am
I MISS YOUR BLOG! I hope you choose to keep going!
Mon 22 Jun 2009 at 11:02 am
I know exactly how you feel. My kids are older, so it’s easier – I don’t blog their names, and I only tell stories about them with their permission. I also don’t say anything nasty about my ex.
Tue 23 Jun 2009 at 4:43 am
I miss your writing!
Thu 25 Jun 2009 at 3:32 pm
maybe just remove the personal pictures?
You’ve never named names, so I doubt anyone you know would ever come across it or put 2 and 2 together-take it from another honest Blogger
I love your Blog!
Sun 28 Jun 2009 at 7:55 pm
Saba – yes, it is therapeutic. I’m thinking of turning those letters into a book for bunny. He’ll love them when he’s older.
Hawaiiana – thanks sista! You’re absolutely right I wouldn’t want to compromise my bun-buns. I have to figure a way out to blog in a way that protects and honors him.
SingleParenPlus2 – yep. I’ll figure it out somehow. Just need to give it some time.
Andi – thanks so much for your kind words. Yes, the sleep thing is an ongoing saga, but there will be an end to it one day. If you’re going through the same thing as me, then my deepest sympathies are with you!
Sonya – yes! I’m blogging on! I’ll find a way!
Dadshouse – helpful tips, thanks for those. I agree about not saying anything nasty about the ex. It’s bad karma and poor manners.
Melissa – thank you! I appreciate you reading!
Partner of a Pilot – aha! there you are! lurking! Thank you! I could remove the photos, but they look so fine up there, don’t they? And yes, I think it would take a lot for someone I know to “discover” my identity. Keep up the great blogging!